get well soon!

Got an emergency call from my dad during my afternoon nap. He told that my brother has been down with fever for 5 days and did not attend school for 3 days already. Suspected of Denggi! Omg. I hope he's alright. Sigh. Such big boy already, and rarely get sick some more. Hope he'll be healthy soon. I had denggi when I was around 10 or something. Had to stay in the hospital for like a week. Scary moments of the past. Bro ar bro, faster heal and play basketball for your high school k.

Your sis misses you.

p/s: Not as if he will read this. sigh. -_-''

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On another note, I just want to say,

I STILL LOVE YOU.......

and I hate myself for it...

can't get enough of it

Can't get enough of taking pictures. Even drag a few to take pictures during Pathology Anatomy class 2 weeks back. Lol. People in the class were surprised at my outlook that day, they went 'Omg, Amy where are you going? A date?'. -_-'' Probably because I look shabby all the time, when I take the effort to look better people will get the shock of their life.

Partners in crime..as always *ChapGohMeh time*

My deskmate for 3 years lol

Sheila, pretty malay girl

Our group incomplete

On the way back from class *that's me being extra stylish for the day*

The snow is darn dirty. Can't be compared to the ones at Germany Lol.

Nice lighting. Of cause take picture la

Again.

Waiting for the bus

AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW

Jabbawockeez *one of my favourite dance crew*

Been keeping right on track on this weekly tv show called Randy Jackson presents America's best dance crew online. Every dance crew is friggin' talented and marvelous at their dancing it got me hooked up. You guys should really give it a try. Here's the link from mtv site. LOVE IT LOVE IT. Someone has even upload all the crew's performing soundtracks and post it in imeem! Darn good wei. Hehe. Aih, perhaps its time someone create a real dance crew in RSMU :P Thanks Tubs for introducin me to this great show wei...

times when I miss you

Times when I miss you, I can only look at the pictures that we took together and reminisced about the past and the things we did.

Times when I miss you, I could only look longingly at the phone knowing I shouldn't call or text you to make things more complicated as it is now.

Times when I miss you, a few drops of tears will roll down my cheeks without me noticing it.

Times when I miss you, I truly get the meaning of losing someone important in our life.

Times when I miss you, I do truly wish that we can go back to the happier times last summer.

Times when I miss you, I finally knew that I had to truly let go for a better future.

swan-ified

Looking back at the precious picture during high school days and comparing it to how we all change and transform, I might say we did a pretty good job at it. Check out the picture below and guess which one is me. The over 'tan' girl who was always under the sun doing extra-curricular activities. Haha. It was fun though. Enjoyable memories. Now everyone's scattered all over the world. Anyone that have our high school pics kindly send to me. Lol.

During form 4 or 5 i think :S

After graduating from High school

Alor outing 2007

looking back

Standing where I am now, and looking how I was like more or less a year ago, I found out I have changed one way or another. It's like a transition which I hope is for the better. Lots of things I did some which I am proud of, some which I am not, some which I regretted and probably will for the rest of my life. Certain things lost can't be retrieve back nor the times when we neglected something or someone ever so important in our life we desperately try to go back in time, doing any ways possible but not knowing that some of the deeds that we do in the process are wrong to start with. I would like to apologize to those whom I have hurt emotionally or physically before this. I know I am someone who is straightforward and whenever I am honest, someone will get hurt by my verbal insult. Sorry. Or to those people who have cared for me but I totally ignore your sacrifices and took you for granted.

Lets all now start anew and embrace our future with smile, confidence and happiness.

To YOU: I really really do hope one day we can shake our hands, hug each other and have a genuine happy carefree conversation just like the day when we first met each other.

WITHIN TEMPTATION: ALL I NEED

I´m dying to catch my breath
Oh why don´t I ever learn?
I´ve lost all my trust,
though I´ve surely tried to turn it around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
when you hold me in your embrace

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don´t tear me down
You´ve opened the door now, don´t let it close

I´m here on the edge again
I wish I could let it go
I know that I´m only one step away
from turning it around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
when you hold me in your embrace

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe

Don´t tear it down, what´s left of me
Make my heart a better place

I tried many times but nothing was real
Make it fade away, don´t break me down
I want to believe that this is for real
Save me from my fear
Don´t tear me down

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place

Give me something I can believe
Don´t tear it down, what´s left of me
Make my heart a better place
Make my heart a better place