Such a simple word to understand, yet its easier said than done.Tough to believe in it. Difficult to TRUST.
Its strenuous enough to handle this on your own, take it at your own pace. What makes it deemed nearly impossible to trust, is being brain washed on a daily basis. By those so called caring friends. What do I need to do?
Be strong mentally and Believe. TRUST. That's the only thing I can do.
I want to have FAITH in you. I want to be ASSURED of us.
I want to learn to do that. God give me strength.
Only time will tell.
Updated: I just got off the phone, and I am already missing you.
*Promise yourself you're going to forget and move on. Forget and move on. Make sure there's no turning back. Please! You need to be strong!*
Suzdal
Hehe. 2nd last day of May. Two more days to June and by 18th I'll be back to Negara Tumpahnya Darahku =P *okay, that was lame!* Anyways, few things I need to rant about!
1. I just came back from 2 days 1 night trip to Suzdal & Vladimir which were located 3.5 hours of train ride away from Moscow. I decided last minute to join my friend although I received a strong 'No' response from my mommy when I told her I want to go away for a 2 day trip 5 days prior to final exam! Heh...But still, yea I went anyways, bringing along the notes. Did read a few times during the long ride back to back.
Conclusion: No regrets! Good experience! Heck its been a long time since I've seen such breathtaking sceneries from Mother Russia other than Moscow of course! I loved the hostel we stayed at although I was there less than 7 hours! =.= And paid a hefty 750rubles for it too! Took massive loads of pictures. Can't wait to go through them when I have the mood to and start uploading!
2. What the hell is wrong with FB? I just don't feel like logging in anymore with the image loading problems! I can't see anything interesting there! I shall just wait for the problem to be solved!
3. Still trying to study for these 3 exams before I am finally off from the 5th year medicine school! And enjoy my summer before starting my final year as a medical student...can't wait can't wait!
4. Perhaps I'll give you a sneak peak on Suzdal + Vladimir? Stay tuned!
Vladimir with Love
I totally LUV this song that has been covered by Tesla Koil and I was just watching Zoey Joey 2009 (I know it came out a year ago ok!) but it's just too nice to not embed this in my blog!
Ever wonder how just a tiny little defect can change the entire scenario? I don't, until I see it with my own eyes.
For example:
A harmless tube-ride at the opposite park ended up being a freak incident and the victim suffers from concussion, and an injured knee. You end up being hospitalized for over a week and missing those important classes at the last years of your education, surviving those torturous nights on the creaky hospital bed. Imagine the victim being your acquaintance.
A seemingly innocent, gorgeous noon strolling at the park at the peak your vacation and you suddenly got attacked by a thieving motorcyclist. You belongings taken brutally from you, including your personal identifications. You ended up with a losing your cash, going through the hassle of reporting at the police station, applying for a one-way visa, buying the next available flight ticket back and ended up with a large hole in your pocket. Worst of all, you miss almost a month of your classes because of the complicated procedures needed to be done to get your passport and visa done at your home country.
Imagine the person being you. It's hard ain't it. I guess we just need to take good care of ourselves and a sense of hope that we don't end up with the same fate.
p/s: I don't mean to hurt the ones who were mentioned here, just wanted to show you my view about these unpredictable misfortunes. It scares me. It scares me a lot.
I know I have never been one of the more likeable person in RSMU. And I think I know why.
Few reasons:
1. Apparently, MY BLOG, the place where I can write whatever I want, post ANY pictures I want, basically just do whatever I want with it, is a source of entertainment for those lifeless, couch potatoes who does nothing other than surfing the net 24/7, planting their butts on their smelly chairs or bed every day for the past years they have been here.
They say I love to put tons and tons of pictures in my blog and my facebook profile. And 90% are imprinted with my face. This ticks them off. Hello, it's called Missamyksy for a reason ain't it? It's my domain.
Now I ask them back, 'If you hate my face so much, why bother coming here in the first place? Nobody's pointing a gun at your forehead forcing you click www.amykor.blogspot.com every day ain't it?' Thanks for adding the stats for me though. Highly appreciate it.
2. They call me FAKE. I really have no idea why. I asked a fellow friend of mine. He gave me this reason. When guys are together, it's all about mannerism. Since you are so vain, basically people will assume you are FAKE.
I was dumbfounded. Since when a person is vain, he/she is categorized as a faker? I am as realistic as a person can be. I don't do plastic surgeries. I don't go around flirting with repulsive male creatures in the hostel.
Just because someone has some confidence, and well, is vain *I admit I am*, doesn't make them fake.
If you guys really hate amykor, there's a simple solution to this.
1. Delete/ block me off FACEBOOK. (I don't mind losing a couple of friends in list. Have one too many anyways.)
2. Stop bookmarking my blog in your internet browser dang it!
p/s: Stop being a hypocrite if you claim you hate people who bitch, when you're doing the same thing. Being in denial is not healthy.
What's with people nowadays? I thought there is freedom to express own self as long as its within the limitations. I bet there's a handful of people who hate me for god-knows-what reasons. I live my own life, I am not bothered with other people's business, I hang out with my close friends, do my own shit. Still people always have something to say about me.
Firstly this is my blog. So what's wrong with making it into a photo-blog, unconsciously. I have been really lazy lately, I think it is due to the fact that I own a dslr now and photography is my new found love since 6 months ago. I appreciate you guys who made me realize, yea, my blog turned lifeless and heck its time to make it alive! So anon, thanks for the words of advice I will take them into consideration.
What really pisses me off is the extend of someone will go just to tell you they hate you. I was on my way to my glorious shopping outing today, and my phone buzzed. This came through from megafon FREE SMS (why so cheapskate, can't send with your own phone number is it):
'Hey for goodness sake u look damn fat and a like king kong in the photo! where is your professional photographer! dont be a eyesore in fb!'
The weird thing is, I did not felt hurt or humiliated in fact I felt highly amused by it. First, what's with the bad command of english? Can't differentiate between a and an. WTF. LOL. I guess the sms was due to that bunch of pictures a friend posted without going through the filtering process which ended up in all the unflattering pictures of me were published all over fb which I have all untagged. I really want to know who's the mastermind behind this. I am guessing it's someone close cause the person knows my contact number. LOL.
Ok, guys/girls. If you're dissatisfied with me, just say it to my face. Voice it out and don't bother trying to mask yourself and be a wimp!
Sometimes you just can't get what you wish for, whether you work hard for it or not. If it just ain't yours to keep, let go let it fly. Perhaps one day it'll come back to you. That's the best that we can do.
Went on photohunting with dearie friend Anaand again on a bright Saturday noon.
Venue? Vorobiuri Gori, the riverside.
We stare into the empty space, desperate to see some light, but all we see is darkness.
A new semester, a new beginning, a new cycle, 2 more years to go. Just get it over and done with. Don't be clouded by other seemingly big problems when they are just miscellaneous events in life. Misery comes from person itself, not the place where it happened. Lets walk this road righteously, joyfully because, tomorrow will be a better day...
p/s: Saw something utterly gross today! I was having my stroll back from the hardware shop with ShuShien when I saw this crazy dude pissing on the side of the walk with his **** facing towards the streets! I saw him wriggling his fat short **** right in front of me! It was excruciating and disgusting. sighs.
Omg! I just had my friggin' haircut that is going to have to last for 10 FRIGGIN' MONTHS because I won't be visiting the hair salon in Moscow.
And guess what?? I officially have a boy's hair cut!!! Gone are those shoulder length hair that I painfully kept for more than a year!!! Lol. I was torn between keeping them longer or cutting them short.
Sigh finally just ask the stylist to cut those dead ends off! I am so scared now!!! I know I look like shit!!
While waiting for Adam to have his haircut at one of the salon in Sg wang. Picture taken by Sheaumun.
Girls. Bloody hell, somone commented that I look like Nobita and Sm like Suzuki. Such an insult!!
Double vision
Sigh. I know I look horrible. First time wearing a lens-less glasses. LOL. For fashion sake KONON. =.=
These 2 days have been like a strike of bad decisions! Had an outing with Aren yesterday. It has been around 4 months since the last time we met up which was back in Volgo Games 2009. He was having his attachment at Ampang Hospital so I drove over to pick him up and headed over to our venue, KLCC. Little do I know is that it was the 1st day of PC FAIR at KLCC! Damn unlucky la! The whole place was jammed up and the parking lot was filled to the brim! The shopping mall was infiltrated with people of all shape and sizes! It was hard to walk around without bumping to familiar old friends!
It was nice meeting you Ainul XD. Had lunch at Avenue K (Little Taiwan sucks big time! Don't bother going there for food!) Accompanied Aren for some shopping done and we headed over to the park for some photography done. I WANT TO GET MY DSLR SOON! How how how! Sigh. Aren just gotten his 450D a few days ago so we explored the mighty gadget. Took pictures of everything we saw and you've guessed it right, we CAMWHORED! It was fun and informative at the same time! XD We managed to capture some pretty shots of ourselves. He's going to edit it and yea, when it's done its SHOW TIME XD.
We watched the movie 'THE LAND OF THE LOST' as the fella has watched almost all the movies on screen! It's crazy ok! I nearly lost the chance to watch a movie! Btw, don't bother watching that stupid movie. It was pretty lame. Headed back home afterwards. Walked all the way to Maya hotel and we were both drenched in sweat as he was wearing his formals and the smart me in my sleeveless attire! Can't wait for the pictures.
As of now, I am waiting for Warren to come pick me up! Gosh, the stupid rally's making the whole KL congested. I doubt he's going to reach anytime soon cause he's been stuck in the jam for almost an hour and a half!
I wonder if I am going to Zouk tonight! Who's going? Anyone?
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Pictures from Bangkok trip part 1
Ala ala Thai
Wat Arun at the back
Got my nails painted for rm5!!!!
The adventures of TUKTUK.
We took the 3 wheel vehicle almost everyday! And got cheated countless of times! Lesson learnt, DO NOT TAKE TUKTUK!
I like this blurry picture.
Us.
XXI. Stands for Forever 21. Got 2 lingeries from La Senza. Not exactly cheap!
Posing outside CentrePoint.
Our shops for 1 day. Mind you we went shopping for 5 days!
Girls with our daily fix of Thai teas and coffees! Yum! From left: Kpy, Pearly, Amyksy, Choy.
Just finished my exam today, the final one for this semester. Yea, nothing much to say. I did my best, result wasn't what I wanted because nothing is fair in Russia. If you get an easy teacher, you ace easily. Well, if you're unlucky, you'll be close to failing the exam!!
Quote from a friend,
'When sit for exam in Russia, its better to have 80% of luck and 20% of knowledge than to have 20% luck and 80% of knowledge!'
Well, looking on the bright side, I'll be leaving for my VACATION very very very soon. Not going to tell you guys when, but you guys will probably get the drift when I stop appearing online and updating the blog. But no worries! Keep browsing till one day you see a new and exciting post ok?
Till then, Bye readers!
(ok, most of my readers are my friends so I should say, friends!)
Wah, what an end to a superbly hectic and tiring week! Another week to go till the end of therapy cycle! I can't friggin' wait. :( :( SO tiring..pimples popping out everywhere due to lack of sleep!
Been a busy Friday. Class ended at 245pm before adjourning to Mos Lanka to queue up forever to pay hostel fees. The way back to hostel was superbly jam got stuck for almost 2 hours before reaching around 6pm. Cooked instant noodles because I was craving for it before taking a 30mins nap. Woke up around 730pm and got ready for my dinner with Dinesh.
He's a nice guy to hang out with. We talked 'bull' for almost 3 hours plus! From 830pm till 12pm. Fui yoh! Rarely got guys that can really talk with girls. He looked good by the way. UNLIKE ME. I did not have the mood to dress up and make up so I went with my 'just wake up' face and hair which was a superb embarrassment for me!!! :( :( Paiseh!
I miss my summer. I miss my friends. I miss my endless outings. I miss shopping! I miss my trips! I miss everything. I feel like I am 'lost' here. Vivien's not back yet and everyone's busy with their own respective life, eg: girlfriend and studies. I don't know why I still don't have the mood to touch the books yet. Probably because today is the first day of class! Sigh, teacher already putting so much pressure on us. Have to prepare for class every single day! And it's in fully in friggin' Russian. I had a hard time coping in class. Desperate to catch what the teacher was trying to say.
My heart is still in Malaysia. Sad to say that. I kept looking at my past pictures. Listening to the hot songs that used made my day. Talking with my Malaysian friends telling them how much I actually miss them which I actually do. Sms-ing my mom daily but she seemed kind of busy enjoying her Merdeka Holidays to actually attend to me whining :P
Aih. Probably because I never stay in my house back in Malaysia whole day without doing anything. I always have something to attend to, friends to meet, daily visit to my dad's kopitiam eating anything that I feel like eating without restrictions, watching our favourite drama on Astro with the whole family every night. Sleeping on my forever comfy bed, wake up to the sight of my messy room and my beloved piano feeling blissed because I am enjoying my life to the fullest knowing I am at where I love being best.
Kind of starting to wonder why I am still having home sick although I am already in my 4th year here already. Darn!!!!! I miss driving my car!!!!! Pavilion I miss you!!!!!
*I want to thank those who called and sms-ed me to wish me safe journey before I flew off to Moscow. It was really sweet of you guys :) Muaks....hehe *
Ok. I am now officially blogging everyday. Or even posting multiple updates a day! Sigh, guess this is what happens when you're too free, without cool friends to hang out with throughout the day, no duties, just waiting for time to pass and for classes to start.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
You know what guys?
I am heading to BANGKOK AND BALI again JULY NEXT YEAR!!!!!
Bangkok
Gorgeous Bali
It was a total coincidence. I saw my friend who is currently in Aussie went online in MSN. Curious on why she posted on her PM: 'Mich, PY, MFoong I hate you guys!' I msn-ed her. All the mentioned people are our friends as well.
And she just told me the GREATEST news ever.
They are heading to Bangkok & Bali next summer! I was like, WTH I want to go to!!! So added Mich into the chatroom and started discussing right away. Not even 10 minutes later, I logged in to Airasia and started booking the flights!!!!!!!
So it is now confirmed that I am heading to BANGKOK and BALI July 2009!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhh, I AM SO EXCITEDDDDDDD!!!!!!!
Don't know how my mom is going to react when she sees the cc bill next month. Hope she won't freak out at the sight of the transactions! I still haven't tell her about it yet. You know, mommies, they have the tendency to shout and say, 'WAH, JUST GOT BACK TO MOSCOW NOT EVEN A DAY ALREADY BOOKING FOR NEXT YEAR'S SUMMER HOLIDAY!'
But but but, it's ZERO FARE for Airasia now mah!! If not book now, later will be damn expensive!!!
Teehee~~ rm520 for 2ways to Bali is si beh cheap ok!!!! But before that was even cheaper around rm300+ aih...I was too late :( But it's OK Lah!
I couldn't fit in all my jeans :( :( :( People, I gained like 3 kgs back home. Now when I looked at my body in the mirror I could see the vast difference between the previous me before heading back for summer and now. I really don't know how to lose weight lah! I really hope I can wear them because classes are starting soon and it's getting cold. I need MY JEANS!!!! Have to refrain myself from eating so much!!!!
p/s: HAPPY MERDEKA my beloved Malaysia! I am missing you already. Will be posting some pictures up of a few last outings before I left M'sia soon!
Aaaaaaaa...I'm loosing my mind! Have been locking myself up in the room for the past 2 weeks! Sigh, devoted to one and only thing worthy to do, and you guys should know what it is. Minus the hours when i am procrastinating . Why are the days passing by so slowly? I am going crazy already. I need air, open spaces, fun, laughter, and everything nice..
I am so UNSATISFIED with my hair condition now.....LOOK AT IT!!!!! Faded dye, half black half whatever brown it is, lots of split ends and DESPERATELY NEED A TRIM because it has been a YEAR since the last time I cut my hair.
HOW SAD IS THAT?? roarrrrr.....Please teleport me to Sri Hartamasnow...Please....Please...
Just to prove my point, I took a few pictures of myself with my BAD hair condition...*sighs*
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Do I resemble a lion? I feel like I'm having a lion's mane on top of my head instead of supposedly silky smooth hair -_-''
To make myself feel better, I resort to tying up my hair......
A forced smile through this harsh period
Get it over and done with quick!
I miss you, my super short 'chic' hair... p/s: Felt so much better after Sinbad..yaya :)
